Wednesday, January 30, 2008

butterflies in my stomach

Ohmy. i'm really worried about whether i'll be able to stay in hwa chong . even the 7-pointers in my cca are going to appeal to stay? What about me?! i know i should have faith and everything, but its really difficult. i know this is rather ironic because i just blogged yesterday that i was not scared about leaving. now it has finally sunk in..
things that i must submit
1) CCA records
2) 'O' level and prelim results
3) Letters of recommendations from teachers
4) Online registration proof
5) A letter of my own to the principal( suggested by crystabel)
6) A prayer to God.
Pray for me people!

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

first ever entry=))

hello people! this is my first ever blog and my first ever entry so if its written weirdly, do forgive. today is a totally weird day.my emotions went on a rollercoaster ride for the first time. i mean i don't usually feel this way. like one moment i sink into total sadness and the next im super happy. yilina says this is very common for many but where i come from, we girls never emo,we just enjoy being with each other. i guess things change, people change. thats why i've chosen my title to be " this is what they call LIFE."hahah..zai rite.. =))
many people have asked me whether im scared that i'll have to leave. the truth is not really. i mean i'll be really SAD to leave hwachong, all the amazing people i met here, og22, and s6n! but i would accept my fate. i know i didnt do well this time. so wherever i have to go, i'll learn to live. but i'll miss you guys like shit! believe me.
Btw, Rhonda, crystabel, joey, weizhen, chiapei, ally, angie, sammie, stephie, viggy and all of kc, i miss u guys terribly! i miss all the rubbish we did together, where we'll just sit at the canteen table and laugh till our stomachs hurt. i miss how we'll always form a 406 alliance in the courtyard befor morning assem everyday and have the junior councillors attempting to scream at us before we decide to sit down. i miss how we would purposely make mrs lim say"variable resistor'' and mdm wadhidah's 'Area under curve". i miss all our pe lessons, where we would moan like shit when mrs sim/mr lee say" three rounds around the canal" and where me and rhonda would moan even louder when mrs sim say" go and take your height and WEIGHT". i miss mugging like shit with u guys and getting thru the verypainful O level journey together. surprisingly, i even miss mr ratnams tuitions where we have to control ourselves not to burst out laughing when mr ratnam does/say something funny and end up vibrating like crazy. i miss all the mass that we have where we'll purposely sing hymns very loud so all the juniors can hear. i miss how me and rhonda do silly stuff like since the po huai er ren zu in sec 2, we acted out the few parts of {secret}. omg. so embarressing. i miss how the rest would say'eee' when i kiss crystabel/rhonda/angie on their cheeks. i miss how we'll sing songs together in class. and the nian shao shi hou song our class performed. i miss our class excursions, and the amazing china trip. i miss labs, where i've broken at least 5 test tubes these four years and i didnt have to pay a single cent. i miss higher chinese lessons, where zhang lao shi would be going on and on abt life values and kaiboon will be rolling her eyes all the way sky-high and back again, repeating this procedure every single chinese lesson for the past 3 years. i miss going home with kaiboon, at the st pats bus stop(i think u wun forget what we always do.haha). i miss how we'll say gdbye to our teachers with " god bless u always". now, when i greet my jc teachers, it'll get stuck in my throat. sometimes i wun even rmb that i used to say it. how sad. i miss running our 2.4km at east coast park. the ocean, wind and all.now i have to run 6 rounds ard the track. so boring. i miss how once the recess bell rings, we'll dash out of ourclassrooms faster than lightning and cut queue at the speed of light. haha. if i cut queue at hci, i'll probably get killed. i miss seeing angie carrying 10 packets of sushi to our table. imissimissimiss. everything of my entire life consists of u guys in it. if i take u guys and kc out of my life, i'll really have nothing much to live by. thats how impt u guys are. promise me we must neverever lose contact okay!=)))
wow, that was a huge chunk. once i start i cant stop. haha.