why is life so difficult sometimes? its unbearable. and im not even talking about exams and stuffs. i cannot always rely on my friends for comfort. i need to rely on myself. they have their own lives to lead. yet time and time again i feel so alone as if even if i scream no one will turn. even when i cry no body knows. even if i die nobody cares. perhaps im exagerrating, but thats truly what i feel sometimes. i tell ppl to be happy, i laugh very loud just so i can hear them laugh and be comforted in the knowledge that at least those around me are smiling and laughing and happy. yet when im unhappy no body knows, or maybe they do but no body comes. i want to meet ppl like rhonda, ppl like gen, ppl like angie now...... but everyone i meet now is crap. they come and leave so fast they must as well not have came, or when they are here they hurt me so hard i rather they didnt come.im very very upset now. i dont give a damn about anything. i dont know why im suddenly so affected by everything pieced together. i need to hug my kc friends. i cannot do this alone. i dont like the people here.
yy go and sleep. when u wake up it will be another day. hopefully a little better day.