Today, today, today. 27th feb 2008 was an emo day. i totally emo-ed for at least 3/4 of the day. It started because of something someone told me , without realizing that it hit me quite hard. subsequently everything that occured throughout the day seemed to pissed me off even though it was totally repititive like every other day. i was pissed when i went to the toilet. i was pissed during chem lab ( i broke the pipette into two using my hands!). i was pissed when i went into fishtank. i was pissed when i talk to yilina and my other friends! (so sorry guys! ) . And the day ended with my nice friend getting pissed with me for some reasons. ><. Talk about a lousy day.

Luckily, something really amusing happened during physics lecture (Yes YX you know what im talking about) and that totally cheered me up again!=) and i reconciled with my nice friend later at night. Thank god. i think i must really try to control my emotions better, but you know when they say girls are more emotional and touchy and stuff, its very true you know, no matter how we try to hide it. and it totally doesnt help that our brains are filled with more than 40% of the emotion "jealousy".

But oh wells, im a girl and i'll have to live with all these weird emotions. all the best to all you girl-power out there. Jyjy!=) Thank you so much to yilina and collin. Esp collin! i didnt expect you to understand and tell=) like i've said before, you guys rock!=)

Hello 6n! i told you guys i'll be back!=)) i love you guys far too much.
Thank lord, thank heavens, thank all the angels above, and a big THANK YOU to all who have prayed for my situation. I GOT BACK TO HC!!=)))))))))))))))))))))))) Congrats to all who successfully appealed back too, including, jing yi, benjamin, kian keong, corina, and ya ting! and to those who havent got news yet, keep holding onto faith! Benj only got news today, so theres hope, dont worry!=)

Today i overcomed one of my fears to do something good=) Pricking my thumb to get some drops of blood for the bone marrow organization,Together with collin! THank god for collin! otherwise, i would never have done it. =)

seriously, it feels so good to be back in hc again. its as if i went on a trip alone for a very long time and finally get to reunite with my family. Its that overwhelming.=)

Anyway, thank you aaron for sending me that song. Im totally addicted to it. WAIT FOR YOU by elliot yamin=) Rocks!!

First canoe-sea training tomorrow! first time im going to canoe=) Only tried kayaking and dragonboating before..totally cant wait=)) but i also totally have no clue how to get there. Okay shucks nvm. go sleep first, i'll figure something out when i wake up.

Cheers people!=)

the results are out liao. I got posted to VJ. and im totally dreading it=((.
But at least crystabel and gen are there. They are like the only source of motivation to wake up tomorrow=)) U guys must zao gu wo tomorrow Ok.=)) 08s6n, i'll be back=)

Okay i realised that my three previous posts are really emo to the power of infinity, and im sorry for making all my good frieds worried. Thank you so much for caring!=))
Anyway, the Good news is, im fine now, really. That day my mum brought me to Pasir Ris park and we just sat infront of the sea for a couple of hrs. We talked about everything i was facing. I love my mum SO much. She totally understands everything. HOW TRUE. Everything im facing now is just so minor compared to everything else im going to have to face as i move on with my life. So i have to stay strong and have the courage to accept whatever plan god has laid out for me. For all of you guys out there also worried abt TUESDAY. Stay strong. Other than that, i might just break into a million little pieces. Thank you to the sea for being so vast and beautiful and which made me realise just how ridiculous i am, Crying my soul out for tuesday.

Dear lord, please bless me with the courage to accept wherever you want me to go to.

HELPLESS

I cant do anything at this point. i want to practise my faculty dance( which totally rocks!) for the inter-class competition, but then i wouldnt stay till the competiton. i want to study for the maths test next week but then again the results wun matter anymore. i cant do anything without feeling my heart aching like hell.

YAY FOR ALL THE NEXT FEW GENERATIONS WHO DOESNT HAS TO EXPERINECE SOMETHING RETARDED CALLED THE FIRST THREE MONTHS.

I am super pissed now. i just read someone's blog and he freaking doesnt want to stay in HC. if you really find it so saddening to stay in HC then freaking dont put it as your first choice ! You are depriving someone else who would give anything to stay at this point ok!!

Tired of crying=((

When your heart breaks, its completely silent. You would think
as its so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole
world. But its silent and you almost wish there was a noise to
distract you from the pain.

Visitor-once-more

Having steamboat=)

The youngest emo-er in the world><

The youngest flasher in the world><

No, they were not watching a horror movie.

they were watching tom and jerry

Jia xi entertaining us with his dance?

That pretty face of a boy=)

Jia ming! Look at those rosy cheeks=))

Jia xi- Look at those rosier cheeks=)

They are here! My cousins, my aunt, uncle and granddad!=)

its my uncles first time here so we're like visitors once again, going round singapore, taking the train, the sbs and all.I swear we took at least a million pictures=)

Not that anyone minded though. Its really so heartening to see them here, whenever we go to china, they are really fantastic hosts! now its finally our turn to serve them.

Due to the limited space in my house, my aunt and uncle will be staying at Marina mandarin hotel these few days, which means the two ADORABLE boys will be sleeping with us. Haha! i dun think any of us will be able to sleep properly tonite><

After that we had steamboat=) i love steamboat, its like the whole family huddling together, sharing warmth and love.

I miss being a child. My cousins, they only worry about toys and food><

HAPPY NEW YEAR ONCE MORE( dunno when it will end?) =))

08S6N, we are meeting tomolo at 3pm at dhoby ghaut mrt. call me for details

Me and jia ming in china=))

Me and jia xi =) Look, hes drooling! haha!

Ok i lost the battle. my family watched cj7 in the end. BUT, it was quite nice=))

The boy in the movie is actually a girl in real life, i read that in a magazine before.so it was pretty weird because throughout the movie i was trying to look for any evidence that he is actually a girl. hahah! and i found none, excepy that the 'boy' is quite pretty.=)

Oh, and the show is ranked higher than jaychou's slam dunk and jack neo's new movie.

Me and my mum cried like crazy when something happened(if you guys want to know, go watch for yourself=) ). our combined cries overrided the character crying in the movie ><>

Other than that, the movie was veryvery funny, and it teaches us to treasure those ard us =)

Tampines mall was super empty today. There were virtually no shops operating. but heck, we were together as a family, and that meant alot=)

My grandfather and my uncle's family from my mum's side are coming from china tomolo! i absolutely cant wait.My two cousins, jia ming and jia xi, 5 and 7 are the cutest things on the whole universe.will update more photos tomolo=)

CNY's here!

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! haha, may the 'new' year be filled with love, joy and peace for every single person on earth!
Not going to visit anyone today, firstly because my family is a bunch of lazy people( haha!) and secondly my relatives are all in hk and china so really no point.=)
SO, today we're going to catch a movie. My dad and my sis wants to watch chang jiang 7 hao. my mum is a neutral party. and i want to watch kung fu dunk(jay chous one)! so we're prolly going to have a very heated-debate=)
will tell you guys who won the battle tonight!=)

Was super happy to see crystabel and rhonda today=) None of them changed, luckily=). But angie is kind of like sliding away abit, i really hope she can come back soon. i miss the four of us being together.
Shopped the whole orchard, far east, plaza sing and all today, met with so many hwachongians, and my church fren, yet we didnt buy a single thing. Can you believe it? we suck la! but generally we had fun ! ate ajisen then went starbucks and whinewhinewhined alot about walking so much.
saw at least a million bags.
hahah Hope crystabel and i can settle on a bag soon.=))

Cant wait for our next outing!

Happy Chinese New Year people!

Our kind-of-screwed candy floss stall
with a violent white man holding up the signboard=)



08s6n grp at the staircase=)

May chew, violent and me!

Yellow figure in the background:Mr jumpy

Me and my twin!=))

Yellow figure trying to dodge the camera: still mr jumpy=)

My newest friend-May chew=)

HC's cny deco rox! The atmosphere was so chinesy and red and happy=)

Our stall was quite screwed though, hahah. The cotten-candy machine was acting weird, spitting sugar all over and forming cotten candy which stuck to each other, and which was concentrated at the middle.

Though we had quite a crowd of customers at first, they left after seeing the state of the candy floss we produced. haha. =p the best part was that GYX ate all the 'deformed' candy floss which fuxing passed to me to throw into the bin..To think we even assigned 10 plus ppl to be the mobile vendors...

However, amidst all those, we managed to have quite alot of fun, as a class. Thats the most beautiful part of today, and the whole cny celebration.

For todays mass dance, i danced with someone new! COLLIN-a.k.a Mr jumpy. ( Hah! i am going to complain about you!) i am not even going to complain about him bouncing alot as usual, or of him dancing the wrong steps at the wrong time. its what he said at the last part of the dance which totally affected me. here it goes "yuenying, you really cannot dance eh." OMG can u believe it? Collin ah! so mean.><

Today im extremely happy because Sam posted something for me on her blog!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

dearest friend
this post is dedicated to my dear friend, yuenying:since you do not have a tagboard, i decided to write it here. i just read your blog. don't worry dear, i understand how you feel too, all the emotions that you are feeling. cause i do feel the same way at times- the adjustments you have to make, and especially friends. the people we meet are very different (i agree) but i just want to let you know that you are not alone. i, the whole group of us and kc will always be here to cheer you up and bring joy to you (: so no worries girl, i am sure you are able to pull through whatever you are struggling with. you have been a great joy to me as well as 406. your hilarious laughter and jokes are always missed. and how we used to play dumb IQ level games which you and rhonda can't seem to get. and i miss your singing too! sometimes i wish you were here so that i can disturb you and laugh at you. hahah. all these fun times and many more were sure good memories to me! (: (:well, i guess we have to move on with our life. but you will always be our best friend (hahah, sounds familar right? rhonda's fav line.) and you can always count on us whenever and whereever! so cheer up ya (:love you loads <3

Thank you so much sammie! its so sweet of you!=)) i know you guys are supporting me, i appreciate it alotalot. Dont worry, i'll pull thru this de, We'll all jy together. You're an angel sam, you completely made my new year! =)) But wow, you miss my singing?? Thats a first! hahah. =))

CNYs coming!=)

yipee! i cant wait for CNY.=)) seriously. i mean, i dont feel the festive mood yet but im already in the holiday mode ...
going shopping with rhonda and crystabel after school tomorrow=) got to get a new pair of sneakers and a new bag! thank lord for CNYs.
i hope everone gets to enjoy CNY and every single occasion, to temporarily put their problems aside and recharge before they go mad.
Something else has been pissing me off for the past few days. some people are just SO DAMN obsessed with looks. especially those seniors in my CCA. OMG, seriously they only talk to the chio people. its so obvious can? please note that im not jealous or anything, its just.. irritating.extremely. i wonder what those girls will do when a pimple pops out on their faces. commit suicide?! haha...
Also, afew days ago there was news on chinas biggest Snow disaster . They had to cancel some train services in some cities. And u noe how china people are so 'on' about traditions and everything they HAVE to celebrate CNY with their own hometown, so they squeeze and push, about 50000 of them , and amidst all that, 11 people died. how right? can you imagine people died because others STEPPED on him/her? freaky, and extremely sad. i'll be praying real hard for those suffering out there.=) keep holding on to faith=) jyjy

1) Goodluck hanchang! for whatever mission you're going to embark on=)
2) Well done yang xuan! jyjy=) stop sighing!
3) Dont worry peiwei, everythings fine!
4) Have fun xiang quan and frannie! Buy presents back ya=)
5) may chew-You're muchmuch prettier=)) happyhappy?
6) HAPPY NEW YEAR people!=))

Smile awile, and while u smile, another smiles. so pretty soon, theres miles and miles of smiles, and lifes worthwhile just because you smiled=))

i realised that i have not uploaded any pictures yet so here is a picture of my mum and i in hk during the dec holidays. My mum, shes a star.=)

not long ago, someone commented that i have a very emo blog . thats quite funny because im not a emo person. not before, anyway. after coming to hc i felt alot of emotions that i have never experienced before, its so weird.

i still feel that no friends can beat kc friends.whenever i go for karibs, i feel so truly happy just because its where i can be truly myself again.

i miss my family. its not that i dont see them now, but i come home so late everyday, and im always so tired i dont have the energy to laugh and joke with them like how we used to do so often. in the past when my dad crack a not-funny joke, all of us will attempt to smile widely and it'll get really funny seeing my mum and my sis doing the same thing. now, i dun even attempt to smile anymore. when i get home, its just shower, homework, sleep. thats why i love the weekends so much! i need to catch-up with my family! i cannot afford to neglect the most impt people in my life.

Lastly, i want to say how proud i am of those people, wherever u are, whos offering lit or theatre studiesnow. You guys rock because you have the courage to pursue what you love, and not to go with the flow. Hahah, im just another coward who chose the science stream even though im so much more passionate anout the arts! so ya, i admire you guys! *Claps and cheers*

Quote of the day: Lie still on the day of pain and the day of joy will greet you=)