Dear diary,
i feel really frustrated because whenever i have so much emotions and thoughts running thru me, i blog them all out but i refuse to let myself publish it. i want belly, rhon, and jelly back. No, scratch that. i NEED them back. i never have difficulties sharing stuff with you guys. like us discussing inner-most thoughts is the most natural thing on earth. how i miss that feeling. i know its not the first time im blogging about this but the feeling is back once more. harder than ever before. today my campaign group went to ECP to film our council video. When we passed KC that feeling was SO strong i literally had to swallow the lump that was forming in my throat. Come this thursday, im gonna hold u guys so tight and for so long that you guys wouldn't get to go home at all=D. im serious. you guys have to sort me back, for me. cheers forever.